Okay, so we start with my 148th self portrait...

then you've got some faces...then finally a really quick apple study that I did to show my friend some tips for digital still life painting.

It's really rough right now... waiting to see if Art Center is even remotely feasible. I got a call from them today, asking me where I was in my decision making and all that...apparently the scholarship I received is the highest they typically offer...and yet I still struggle. Oh well...I've got a lot to think about and plans to make for the fall...lots of possibilities. Basically, no matter what happens, life will be interesting this fall. I need to do more studies like this...Photoshop is such a nice program. I wish Painter would emulate that brush better...hard round...so nice. I'm so tangential. And now I'm tired. But I should stay up and work hard. Listen to some Bobby Chiu, Eric.




I'm just a little frustrated by the amount of work I've been producing lately...it's not...it's not up to par with what I want...yeah not at all. I want to change that. Now. Yes, even while school is wrapping up and I'll have finals and papers to write (like today, ew). I'm tired to feeling so stagnant...I hate it. I don't feel like I'm living up to my potential, nor am I really achieving what I think I _need_ to be achieving...it's...agh...yes. Bad. I want a job. Someone give me a concept art job.

Self portraits and sketches I did this weekend in the Plaza area of KC this weekend...oh and I used a random character generator which came up with "vast red librarian." She's vast and a librarian...perhaps not red, but that's only because I don't have red pencils or markers or anything. **shrug**



Thinking about Art Center

I've been doing the usual...stressing out about my college options for this fall...I'm still sort of debating over Art Center vs. staying at KCAI vs. self study...so many options...so little money. You know, some times a school can give you all the money in the world and you're still just not going to be able to afford it...that's a frustrating thing. I got a decent Art Center scholarship...but it's just not doable.

It'll be a fairly light weekend for my homework...a little sculpting...a little work on my project with TheDuoGroup...a little touchup on my Fairfield Porter reproduction...I'm going to try to sell it on Craigslist because that's what a friend of mine did. I hope that I might be able to sell it relatively quickly...I mean...it's big. 5'x6' just isn't going to fit in my family's minivan when I take all my stuff home for the summer...ahh...it will not necessarily be good being home. I really do hope that some things fall into place so that I can know where my life is headed this fall.

I also just really want to plan my trip to the west coast. Regardless of whether or not I need to visit Pasadena to look at potential housing situations in the area...I really just need to get out there. See some amazing places, get inspired...maybe even meet some amazing people. Who knows...could be wonderful... Could be...




I tried observing my face differently today...more as just shades and shapes rather than as a "face" I think I got it more accurate than usual...hmmm...




Yet another day...self portrait...I really need to scan some other stuff...dang. I started my new workshop at KCAI today. It's essentially figure sculpting. It's the third and final workshop, it is also supposed to be the most intense of the three...I have to say, I'm feeling it already. The assignment this evening is to sculpt my hand out of clay...not as easy as I thought/hoped. I'll be going in bright and early tomorrow as well...



The self portrait of the day...and also a digital character painting I did the other day...not perfect by any means, I did it in like...2 hours.



day I worked a lot in studio on other things...so this is what I did with ink pen. Whee...




sketching...blah. I'm busy with homework. Test tomorrow...busy week.



No April Fools joke from me...how very sad. Just a self portrait.


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